Wednesday, 17 January 2018

Never walk away.


The pose used here has been edited so severely, it looks nothing like the original... so I'm leaving this blank!

Today I am struggling to write, so I'm not going to! Also, Santi is just playing man-dolly (although, can you say Weeknd?), and his credits will be missing. ♥


All of the things : 

Body & Feet: -Belleza- Freya
Head : CATWA Uma
Skin : [theSkinnery] Laura Collabor88
Eyes :  CATWA Mesh Eyes 
Eye Appliers :  LOTUS. Duality Eyes (Gacha) @ Gacha Guardians
Moles & Freckles :  Go&See  * Bae * Moles - Pallete @ The Seasons Story
Birthmark :  [okkbye] bold birthmarks
Hair : Tableau vivant \\ Rita hair Collabor88
Hairband : +Half-Deer+ Blossom Baby - Rose Crown - Pastel (Gacha)
Necklace : #SHOOK - Leo Necklace {Sweetheart}
Romper : _CandyDoll_ Dayanis 
Rings : Amala - The Lumi Stacking Rings (Note, although wearing the freya body by belleza, my hands are the MAITREYA hands from the maitreya body. The Amala rings are rigged for both slink & maitreya & as yet, belleza does not have bento hands.)
Shoes : [BREATHE]-Emmy Flats






Tuesday, 16 January 2018

Try to hold me down but..


Pose : FOXCITY. Steamy-7
Background : MINIMAL - Illusion Background *3*

I've been thinking a lot about the subject of "Seeking fulfillment" recently.
I have figured out that many of the people I consider to  be the "right" people to further my aspirations that I would like to notice me, aren't noticing me. And I've finally come to the conclusion that actually, that's okay.
In terms of blogging, I do what I do because I genuinely love it. It gives me a creative outlet. It gives me a reason to log in to SL and challenge myself with new items, new ideas and it gives me the option of potentially meeting new and wonderful people that I can sparkle along-side.
Just because so-and-so from that-one-thing isn't noticing my personal growth, doesn't mean that others aren't. It also doesn't make those people who are supporting me, or aren't "the right people" any less-than, in fact, it makes those people More-Than, and I should work harder on being grateful and humble.
Since figuring out that I am legitimately blogging because I want to, and accepting that sponsors are not a required field, I feel like I have enabled an extra bit of Pickle to come to light, and I am loving it. I feel like each post has a little more personality. A little more me. It's not only become a place I just throw my outfits, but also a place I can open up a little bit.

On that note, thank you for reading/peeking my pictures. Thank you for every like, share & comment. Thank you for believing in me, if only for the fragment of a second it took for you to click here today.

Here's what you came for :


All of the things ;

Body & Feet: -Belleza- Freya
Head : CATWA Uma
Skin : [theSkinnery] Laura Collabor88
Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes /Fatpack (Gacha) (Formerly at N21)
Eyeshadow : Veechi - Iridescence [Dark] (Gacha) The Epiphany
Lipstick : Veechi - Doll Gloss [Vivid] RARE (Gacha)  @ The Epiphany
Moles & Freckles :  Go&See  * Bae * Moles - Pallete The Seasons Story
Birthmark :  [okkbye] bold birthmarks
Hair : LeLutkaHF03 hair
Tattoo : -7P-JP Reborn Tattoo @ Man cave 
Choker : Amala - The Ariana Choker 
Outfit : Pseudo- Kayla Set Freya Anti (Gacha) (Formerly at N21)
Boots : #EMPIRE - Loosestrife Collabor88


Monday, 15 January 2018

Graduate.


Pose :  <K&S> Bloom Male pose 4
Location : [WoS] Woodcrest University Campus in Wormwood City - Urban RPG
(Please be courteous to RP'ers while visiting this sim & wear the appropriate tag!)

I've often been tempted to start attending a roleplay area. Usually, I get all the shopping done, create a backstory for my character and then completely wimp out about actually interacting with anyone or creating story-lines. It's not because I'm uncertain about my roleplay abilities... in fact i'm probably disgustingly over-confident in that respect. Again, it comes down to being afraid to actually dip my toe in and get started.
I give full props to Santi for finding the location for this post today. There I was.. all Man-Pickled up and whining mercilessly to him; "I'm so stinkin' cute but I don't know where.." I knew I wanted a fraternity house but I'm so terrible with the search button and so easily distracted!
This sim is set up beautifully. If you're looking to roleplay in a university theme, I would recommend this on looks alone, who knows, maybe you'll even find a Man-Pickle wandering around :P


All of the things! :

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body 
Skin : Clef de Peau.Oscar  @ TMD 
Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 
Eyes :  LOTUS. Lovely Eyes
Hairbase & Hair : Modulus - Scott Hair @ TMD 
Ears : [theSkinnery] Human Ears
Glasses : [Z O O M] Luccs Kioto Glasses @ TMD 
Jacket & Shirt : not so bad . mesh . MARCO suit jacket @ TMD 
Pants : <Kalback> Original Chino @ TMD 
Boots : [MSN Design] - Nubuck Boot 


Saturday, 13 January 2018

Bring me a dream.


Pose :   Sari-Sari - Sleep (bento) @ The Seasons Story

On facebook today & yesterday someone on my feed was asking whether it's usual for people in SL to just go "ghost" without warning. Apparently, they had been in a relationship with someone, and everything seemed happy... when they just didn't return.
This has happened to me more than once, as I expressed in her thread. But honestly, is it that much different from going on a few dates with someone for real, and having them ignore your texts and calls and never seeing them again? 
I'm not legitimizing this kind of behaviour... in fact, it's utterly contemptible in my book. I am however, surprised that it surprises people.
SL is used by many for a fantasy outlet. Then there are a few people who believe SL & RL correlate in some way, but aren't directly connected and finally, there's the Secondlife equates to me in RL group. I believe it's important when engaging in any type of relationship to find out which group your new friend belongs to.
Of course, it's far more complicated than just the three groups I have listed. There's no reason why you can't dip your toes contentedly into all three at the same time, or have friendships and relationships with people within all of those sectors. I do think that those you connect with -usually- tend to be those who think in similar terms as you do, but of course, there are going to be those who want to 'play games'. Some people are playing the game because it gives them some odd sense of power and others are playing the game unwittingly, usually because they're insecure and are pretending to know what they want, while not having a clue as to who they really are.
Ultimately, it's like everything. If you don't take a chance, you'll never know what might be.
And if you do take a chance, you need to be prepared to get hurt and learn to move on from it.

My details today are very brief, but I hope you manage to find some treasures from them! This Miss Chelsea set is fuggin' amazing, and i'm not even sorry I've blogged it twice in two days and worn it out already - and Epiphany hasn't even begun yet!

All the things, Santi : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body 
Skin : STRAY DOG - Caleb
Eyelids : L'Etre - Natural mesh eyelids
Head :  CATWA HEAD Daniel
Hair : Lock & Tuft, Denver @ Man cave 
Beard : DOUX - Mesh beard 
Tattoo : Dappa - No Love

All the things, Pickle :

Body, Hands & Feet :  Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara
Head : CATWA Uma
Skin : [theSkinnery] Laura Collabor88
Eyelids : L'Etre - Natural mesh eyelids
Moles & Freckles :  Go&See  * Bae * Moles - Pallete The Seasons Story
Hair : *ARGRACE* Akane 
Tattoo : DAPPA - Vandal Tattoo @ Kinky Event
Shirt & Shorts : .miss chelsea. Day to Slay Gacha @ The Epiphany (Opens 15th Jan)


Friday, 12 January 2018

Slowly strolling.


Pose : FOXCITY. Observe-4
Background items : CITY FILLERS from URBAN JUNGLE
ROOST - Street Accessory Pack1
Apple Fall Metro Entrance
[sau]Tooldog[1][naked]

Hi!
I spent some of today listening to old-school musics with my special person. Turns out, a lot of the tunes he was sending me from the America's had been re-done by boybands in England a couple of years later. Naturally, I was flippin' shocked, and although I still prefer the English versions (soz America), it was interesting to hear the sometimes VERY slight differences in how they're portrayed to similar audiences at a similar time.. the only real change being the location.
I think I've stated before that I've  never really been super into the whole music scene. I LOVE songs, music and most of what is associated with it, but I don't like having to be overly genre specific, because I just don't know what is what. If it appeals to my earpieces, then I will like it. If it doesn't, I won't.
Of course, there are songs that are special to me. I'm not sure if that's because of the memory they evoke or the words or music itself, but either way, I'm glad we have it. The world would be a far quieter, more boring place without the tuneage.


All of the things : 

Body & Feet: -Belleza- Freya
Head : CATWA Uma
Skin : [theSkinnery] Laura Collabor88
Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes /Fatpack (Gacha) (Formerly at N21)
Freckles1 : Bossie. freckles & star stickers
Eyeshadow : -SU!- Ilienne Eye Makeup 
Lipstick : [PF] CATWA LIPSTICK - Pure Matte (Reds)
Hair : TRUTH / Tinsley - Dec VIP Gift
Headphones, Dress, Necklace & Backpack : .miss chelsea. Day to Slay Gacha @ The Epiphany (Opens 15th Jan)
Tattoo : -7P-JP Reborn Tattoo Man cave 
Nails & Rings : [CX] Shredder Claws @ The Seasons Story (Note, although I am wearing the Belleza body, I am wearing Maitreya hands, with the 'slink fit' option on the body hud)
Shoes : _CandyDoll_ Anny Boots @ Fameshed


Thursday, 11 January 2018

Set another goal.


Pose :  Go&See * Cutie * 5 (Note, the animation in the bag over-rides the arm/hand pose)
Background :  BUENO-City Block @ TMD

I'm going to broach a very sensitive subject for the blogger community today. I've attempted this in the past, but I believe my mentality was wrong, and the words just ended up looking like I was ungrateful and spiteful, rather than contemplative and confused... so today, I try again.
Over the past two years I have been incredibly -incredibly- lucky to gain the support of some absolutely amazing brands for this blog. I am -so- grateful, and often amazed at their creativity and skill, and also grateful that their products allow my creativity to flow too.
When I began my journey, I had made the decision that everything I got would be earned through progression & work. I would improve, hoping to turn the heads of a few people along the way to help support my growth with the pictures I take & the showcasing of the way I wear their products.
I continue with that theory today.
These last few months, I have struggled immensely with new sponsorships.
Now, I understand that being a blogger is all about social networking and not just plain talent. I also know there are other people who have far more talent than I do in their photography, and I honestly hope that continues to be the case forever, otherwise I will have nowhere to aspire to be.
I am an introvert. I accept this! However it means that there are times where I legitimately cannot cope with being around "people". This makes the social aspect of blogging an absolute nightmare for me. The anxious, overthinking, over-talking & explaining part of my brain just won't allow me to get involved with the community on the level I might like to, in order to continue my growth.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE what I do, and I blog because not only do I enjoy the outlet SL provides for photography & fashion, but now, I also enjoy writing, even if it's a bunch of Pickled nonsense! I would be lying if part of me didn't want to succeed to a greater extent than I am right now. I feel like I have stagnated, and although *I* think I see an improvement in my photography from the beginning of my journey, I feel like I am being overlooked because I choose not to favourite and like and share and be as involved in the social aspect of blogging in order to make my pictures get noticed. 
I am not that girl.
I know there are more bloggers & flickrites & photographers who feel the same way I do, and I really feel like there should be two categories when creators choose their bloggers. One being "Friends who blog" and the other being "Bloggers I want to support & showcase my product".
It is -so- frustrating to watch the conversations on facebook/flickr occur, seeing the same people who happen to blog and be friends with a creator suddenly appear on their blogger list, when you feel like you're working your butt off to improve. I'm not saying those people don't necessarily deserve their spots, but there are always "wtf?" moments for me when I see the names appear.
Again, I understand that as a creator you want maximum exposure for your brand, and having an online presence will no doubt give out a helping hand for that and I am not bashing or belittling anybody for being friends with a creator - I too have creator friends and I am always humbled when they provide me with items to blog... I am simply venting.
Whatever the case, I will continue to love on & support those creators who's products I genuinely adore, and I will never stop purchasing from somebody who has "rejected" me as a blogger. 
I hope this post doesn't come off as "poor Pickle", because I do not feel "poor" at all.
I'm enriched with the sponsors I do have, each one is a gift, each one also allows me to express a part of my creativity that I might not know existed had they not produced their item and allowed me to be a part of their marketing team. I am, and will continue to be humbled and blessed by those who support me by allowing me to support them. <3


All of the things : 

Body & Feet: -Belleza- Isis
Head : CATWA Uma
Skin : [theSkinnery] Laura Collabor88
Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes /Fatpack (Gacha) (Formerly at N21)
Freckles1 : Bossie. freckles & star stickers
Eyeshadow & Face Tattoo : -SU!- Ilienne Eye Makeup "Ink" 
Ears :   ^^Swallow^^  Gauged Ears
Hair : Exile:: Slow Dancing Collabor88
Headband : .Oppa. Emily Ears Headband 
Mask : BTTB ros mask (Former Gift)
Necklace : :BAMSE: Button Necklace - Daddy's (Gacha)
Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo - Mikhail
Tank : -tres blah- Bella Tank Top
Fur Coat : Moon Elixir - Rich Girl (Maitreya version, Formerly @ District20)
Puppy Bag : Tentacio & .{PSYCHO:Byts}. Underground Winter-MomDogs Bag(Gacha) @ The Seasons Story
Shorts : -SU!- Laced Shorts
Boots : _CandyDoll_ Rania Boots 


Wednesday, 10 January 2018

Whenever you're ready.


Pose : FOXCITY  Sits VOL2-5
Backdrop : anxiety %goodnight
Chair : FOXCITY The Mad House Furniture Set 

Yesterday I briefly mentioned that I'm attempting to use the Black Dragon viewer of SL. Today is no exception. Admittedly, there's a bit of photoshop involved in this picture, but overall, I'm not mad at how this has come out! I'm still very new to the lighting options, and with the fiddling with all the things, yet somehow, with the help of the integrated lights in this Anxiety backdrop & a couple of well-placed projectors, I seem to have hit what I was aiming for, with the CandyDoll boots especially.
Now, the boots aren't going to look like this all the time, but the effect is definitely manageable, even on the firestorm/regular SL viewer. Because they are Materials Enabled, when you activate ultra and hit them with a light in exactly the right spot, you can see the sheen and lights. Not only that, but the effect is ever-changing depending on the angle you're looking at them, and the direction of the lights.
I'm not very good at explaining these things, and there are so many people who do it better. There are a good few tutorials on Youtube at the moment from helpful SL'ers, so a quick search will probably garner you far more information on Materials & Lighting effects. Not to mention the website for Black Dragon (and possibly other viewers too). The truth is, I work far better by exploring myself and learning things through doing than being "Taught" which kind of makes me a bit lazy!
My photoshop skills are pretty limited, I can do the basic colour-tweaks, fiddling with overlays stuff, and sometimes I will even faff with sticky-outty-bits & stuff, but for the most part, the pictures I take inworld are transferred to my blog as-is, with only minor differences. I urge you to have a play around with this viewer & the viewer you currently use, because there are literally so many ways to make your pictures come to life.


All of the things : 

Body & Feet: -Belleza- Isis
Head : CATWA Uma
Skin : [theSkinnery] Laura Collabor88
Eyes :  CATWA Mesh Eyes 
Eye Appliers :  LOTUS. Charmant Eyes (Gacha) @ Chapter 4 
Freckles1 : Bossie. freckles & star stickers
Birthmark : [okkbye] bold birthmarks
Ears :   ^^Swallow^^  Gauged Ears
Hair : tram G0616 hair 
Necklace : MG - Back Necklace - Esmeralda Gypsy Queen
Dress : _CandyDoll_ Aimin Dress Collabor88
Boots : _CandyDoll_ Aimin Boots Collabor88