Saturday, 16 December 2017

Coming through.

Pose & Dogs : .Focus Poses. Couple 27

Location : D 0 X

I can't describe the feeling of contentment I have right now.
To say the last week has been a rollercoaster of emotions would be an understatement, even by my standards. If you've been reading for a while, you'll know that I barely left my platform for two years. It seems that stepping out of my box has ruffled a few feathers, and I'm okay with that. Those who know me, will continue to. Those that don't perhaps never will.
This last week I literally bumped souls with someone. At first, I was naturally cautious.
The more we talked and the more patient they were, the easier it has been for me to open up.
I'm not scared to say anything.
I'm not worried that I might be too much, or not enough.
As things stand right now, holding hands and walking is enough, and I cannot thank them enough for their understanding of me, their time spent with me allowing me the space for creativity and ranting and all the things that make me feel good.
I'm  not stifled. I'm still free.
And it feels really, really fucking nice.

All of the things, SantiClaus :

Body & Hands : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body 
Skin : Tableau Vivant \\ Fabio applier 
Head :  CATWA HEAD Daniel
Eyes : -SU!- Lythion Eyes
Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase
Hair :  Modulus - Julius Hair (FREE Fatpack @ Consent)
Coat/Hoody/Shirt :  fame femme: Pit Coat TMD
Jeans :  Legal Insanity - Lynch black jeans w/bandana
Boots : [Deadwool] Patmos boots

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara
Head : LAQ Bento - Motion Capture - Scarlet 
Skin : Insol: face Vera, ST03 'Peach' 
Birthmark : [okkbye] dewy blushers (catwa & omega)
Eyes :  -SU!-Delora Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha) 
Bindi & Nose Ring : :: SAGA :: Wonderland Jewel Set @ Kustom9
Hair : *barberyumyum*93 
Coat : NIU - Cotton coat Liaison Collaborative
Sheep Bag :  =Zenith= Sheep Head Bag (Note : This is a really old gacha item, not sure if still available)
Leggings : Blueberry - Cake - Tight Leggings 
Boots & Socks : #EMPIRE - Luculia @ Winter Trend

Friday, 15 December 2017

Move in closer.

Pose & Held Gifts : *!R.O!* 'Tis the Season

Props : Gifts on table : {moss&mink}  All that Glitters - Gift Pile (classic) The Arcade
Table : {anc} NOEL. :  feather table (Gacha)
Rug :  {anc}  NOEL. :  frilled furrug  (Gacha)
Stool :  {anc} NOEL. :  hoofs ladder chair (Gacha)
Candles : {moss&mink}  All that Glitters - Candle Red The Arcade
Frame : BALACLAVA!! Milton Gold Frame
Fireplace : ChiMia:: Ephemeral Fireplace 
Tree :  {anc} NOEL. :  tears tree / 9Li RARE (Gacha)
Pup, Sled & Reindeer : O.M.E.N -Christmas Morning @ Tannenbaum 

"Don't get your tinsel in a tangle!"

I understand that this season means different things depending on your religion and culture, and I'm okay with wishing people "Happy Holidays" or "Seasons Greetings" if it means they feel included, because ultimately, that's what this season is all about.
I also think it has a lot to do with being kind, giving not receiving and if you do receive, receive gracefully and gratefully.
I don't think it takes much to be a pleasant human. Maybe a little more effort, and though I'll be first to admit I've made bunches of mistakes in the past, I'm going forward with the notion that it's worth the effort. We just need to know when to draw the line, which for me is a constant work in progress. 

Please take this as an opportunity to love each other, to pass on the spirit of joy and happiness to those around you. Winter can be a tough season to get through, and sometimes it's easy to fall into a grumpiness or a depression, so remember that when you're talking to people. There's so many reasons to be sad, or melancholy. Be the reason for someone to smile today.

All of the things, SantiClaus : 

Body & Hands : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body 
Skin : Tableau Vivant \\ Fabio applier 
Head :  CATWA HEAD Daniel
Eyes : -SU!- Lythion Eyes
Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase
Hair :   Stealthic  - Like Lust
Ears : L'Etre - Ringed mesh ears
Tattoo : Isuka : Drifter
Undies :  Mossu - Kevin.Underwear

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara
Skin : Essences - Rachel 
Head : CATWA Catya
Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 
Eyes :  LOTUS. Lovely Eyes @ The Chapter Four
Brows : Viena :: Perfect Eyebrows Grey @ Bodyfy 
Blush : Izzie's - Winter Blush (Former Gift)
Ears :  ^^Swallow^^  Pyramid Ears
Lipstick : [PF] CATWA LIPSTICK Applier - Glossy Pout
Hair :  #Foxy- Mondaze.
Antlers : Astralia - Funny holidays gacha (the holidays deer) RARE (Gacha)
Tattoo : DAPPA - Sasuke Tattoo. @ Man Cave
Panties : .:villena:. - Red Thong  (Group gift)
Lights : :Moon Amore: FALALALA Socks&Lights Collabor88
Socks : fame femme: Winter socks - Maitreya - RARE (Gacha) @ Liaison Collaborative

Thursday, 14 December 2017

Drain my heart.

Pose : Lushish Poses - Spank me Daddy f (Note: This is NOT a bento pose. I used my ao, but you can find a bento hand pose hud on Marketplace, too!)
Props : Fireplace : LISP - Mesh - Artemis Fireplace
Cat : *HEXtraordinary* Nope Cat - Mistletoe Hat (Gacha)
Chair : dust bunny . my plaid chair
Side Table :  dust bunny . round end table
Cookies :  dust bunny . tree cookies

"The empty vessel makes the loudest sound."

It's pretty easy to find quotes to relate to any moment in your life, such is the beauty of the interwebs. I'm guessing even if my opinion was different, I would be able to find an appropriate quote to fulfill that, too.
I do love me some Shakespeare though!
This is a very brief write-up today because my spoon count is low, but just remember kids, unless you've walked in the same shoes, the same footprints as someone, you don't know them. 
And most of all, consider your sources.

All of the things : 

Body & Feet : -Belleza- Freya 
Skin : Insol 'Peach' 
Lingerie & Pearls : *MC* Naughty & Nice Lingerie For Bound Box December
Hands : Slink Hands - Dynamic
Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system
Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One
Butt Applier : W:6 Red Ass and boobs Xmas Special @ Bodyfy 

Wednesday, 13 December 2017

Tell me how you feel.

Pose : *CNZ* Kinky Santa 01 (Mirror) @ Ebento
Held Decorations : {moss&mink} Baubleicious! (Gacha) @ Tannenbaum
Christmas Tree : {moss&mink} All that Glitters - Christmas Tree (pastel) RARE (Gacha) @ The Arcade
Chair : {moss&mink} Daydream Chair @ District20
Rug : _CandyDoll_Fancy Rug Rose

"Oh what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to deceive."

Appearances can be deceptive.
I've learned that you really can't judge a book by it's cover. As much as I love to see a fully put together avatar, I'm far more open to finding a fully put together heart now. 
For me, outside appearances are now a bonus.
I would rather meet a new player with a pure heart than an old player with a twisted mind and some pretty pixels.
Trusting is no longer easy, for many of us. We have been burned. We have been mislabelled by reactions we've had to situations caused by the malice of others. We're pigeon holed by those labels and fight to free ourselves daily. While I believe we are many things to many people, the only person who ever has a chance of really understanding us, is ourselves. Unless, we open up.
I want nothing more than to continue being brave, opening up to people and allowing them in. Encountering all their pain, and molding it with mine in a bitter sweet reminiscence that brings us close. Not sheltering each other, but leaning against each other and saying "I understand." Because with most situations you have encountered, another would have been there too.
I'm incredibly grateful to the people I have met lately.
You have all taught me to be strong, and have unintentionally assured me that yes, there IS still good. Yes, there ARE still people who believe in the basic morality of humanity and consideration to others and their lives.
Live your way, but do it respectfully.

All of the things :

Body & Feet : -Belleza- Freya 
Head : LAQ Bento - Motion Capture - Scarlet 
Skin : Insol: face Vera, ST03 'Peach' 
Ears :  ^^Swallow^^ Rox Ears 
Birthmark : [okkbye] bold birthmarks
Eyes :  -SU!-Delora Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha) 
Headpiece : *LODE* Head Accessory - Hibiscus [white] @ The Chapter Four
Hair : TRUTH HAIR Olympia
Glasses : .tsg. Shy Megane 
Nipple Chain : Messy. Gem Barbells Nipplechain 
Hands : Slink Hands - Dynamic
Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system
Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One
Fishnets :Bossie. diamond fishnet tights 
Panties : Blueberry - Tinker Panties 
Shoes : #EMPIRE - Sundrop 

Tuesday, 12 December 2017

I choose to believe.

Pose : *!R.O!* Renew BENTO Pose (Note, this pose comes with a bird, I just swapped it out)
Robin : MishMish - Robins in the snow 
Location : Luane's World

Many of my friends know and understand the term and I feel like it should be a universal term for, well, everyone.
The original article is >here< and it's written in relation to Lupus. However, I feel like it should be noted that no matter who you are, you have a limited amount of spoons, daily.
The basic gist of the article is that you need a physical representation of the amount of energy you use each day. This could be spoons... this could be coins, basically, anything you can easily find multiples of. Each day, you are assigned a certain amount of "spoons". Let's say today, you have 12. That's a fair amount of spoons! Now what are you going to do with them?
For every activity you do today, you're going to give a spoon away.
Got out of bed? I'll take a spoon.
Brushed your teeth? I'll take another.
Showered? More spoons!
Gotten dressed? Yep. That'll be a spoon, please.

And the day kinda goes on like this.
The idea is to end up with no spoons, and no activities left to do. If you run out of spoons but for example, still need to take the rubbish out of the house, or a friend calls around unexpectedly and you have to act as a host for a while, you can borrow against your spoons for the next day - but that's going to leave you with less activities available for you tomorrow.. so you need to be extra careful you're not running on empty!
Sometimes, you have to do just that, which kind of leaves you in a difficult position.
Do you continue trying to do everything? Or do you take a rest-day and recover your spoons?

I love the idea of this "Spoon Theory". For me (and many around me) it makes mental illness, pain management & general day-to-day life so much easier to explain. Within my little group of people, if we're not in the mood to talk, we just use the term "I don't have enough spoons today", and we instantly understand each other and give the space that's needed, or offer support if necessary.

I like to think you can earn spoons back, too. Say you ask for help, maybe it's something as simple as you're hurting when you're putting your coat on, or you have a nagging issue you'd like some advice with. Having someone to help you with your coat, or offer a friendly ear could be a way of making you feel better, and thus grasping at a shiny new spoon to spend elsewhere that day.

It's really helped me in terms of having people understand why sometimes I just can't people. Hopefully, it'll help you, too.

All of the things :

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara
Skin : Essences - Rachel 
Head : CATWA Catya
Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 
Eyes :  LOTUS. Lovely Eyes @ The Chapter Four
Brows : Viena :: Perfect Eyebrows Brown Bodyfy 
Blush : Izzie's - Winter Blush (Former Gift)
Ears Hairband : Included with the +Spellbound+ Honey hair
Hair : Tableau Vivant \\ December Collabor88
Collar : Kenvie - Gold Ring Choker - Brown (You can get a version of this collar FREE @ Consent!)
Dress & Cardigan : =Zenith=Cardigan Sweater with Shirt Dress @ Kustom9 (Opens 15th Dec) (Note : If you have ANY type of boobs, this dress is going to flatten them. I mean pancake flat.)
Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system
NailPolish : alme.   Fall Palette II - Shiny 
Rings : Amala - The Lumi Stacking Rings 
Bracelet/Watch : E-Clipse Fiocco Watch (Former Gift)

Monday, 11 December 2017

In the end.

Pose : <K&S> Bloom Male pose 2
Background : MINIMAL - Sevilla Backdrop //1//TMD

So i'm sitting here wondering about what to type here. I'm naturally over thinking because of the little weirdo that I am, and the only thing I keep thinking is "Hey, you're Man-Pickle. Talk about boobs!"
I'm not quite sure that's appropriate. >.>
For today I'm going to stick to the items I'm showing. And let's begin at the hair, because DUDE. Look at my effing HAIR!!! 
I squealed rather loudly and in a very un-masculine way when I accidentally fell upon this hair from Speakeasy. Turns out the entire store has been re-done. It looks so good! It's also been separated into specific areas, so you can find poses, shapes, hair & tattoo's a whole bunch easier now.
The hairbase comes with the hair, and yup! Love that too!
Complex has been bashing items out left right and centre. There's no doubt the guy is working his butt off at the moment, bringing out new items in new events. As a fairly new brand he's definitely one to watch. Not only does his mesh fit perfectly, but the styling is 100% on point for anything urban.
Obviously, one of my go-to stores for sneakers right now is Versov, and these don't disappoint. Man-Pickle is wearing the gold version because he's kinda a baller on the down low, the kind of dude to give that hot chick a grin and make her entire world stop for a moment, before jogging to catch the next bus, cus yanno, he's a baller, but keeps it real.

All of the things : 

Body & Hands : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body 
Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 
Eyes :  LOTUS. Lovely Eyes @ The Chapter Four
Freckles : Bossie. freckles 
Beard & Beardbase : Unorthodox Remix Facial Hair TMD
Hair & Hairbase : { Speakeasy } Rav Hair
Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Drop Ear 
Necklace : Nova - Nail Necklace 

Sunday, 10 December 2017

My door's always open.

Pose : . Infiniti . - Snowball Fight
Car : --ANHELO-T04RD-17CGA :: christmas 2017 (red)

Meet Juniper!
You know that feeling when you meet someone who's brain works almost the same as yours, and who doesn't seem to care how bizarre and distracted by sparkles you are? That's Juni! I stole her, and now she's my new best friend!
Who knew some sarcastic gifs would be the start of a wonderful kinship!
She had a wonderful idea for us to do a post together - and it's always been something I've wanted, but being the creepy little derp I am, I've always struggled with approaching other bloggers for collaboration posts. Of course, once she'd given me her idea I ran away with it and took over because of the control freak in me. Thank you for allowing me that opportunity, Juni!
You can check out Juniper's take on our photo session >Here!!< We may be found in a slightly more silly state of undress in her photographs! *gasp!* Her credits will all be on her page, so check back regularly!!

All of the Pickle things :

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara
Head : LAQ Bento - Motion Capture - Scarlet (Note : This head is on sale at 1000L for this weekend ONLY. Personally, I LOVE it. Well worth it if you want a different look, or can't afford the 5k price tag of a regularly priced mesh head. Also, she works with OMEGA!)
Skin : Insol: face Vera, ST03 'Peach' - This is an old skin, made for the LAQ Trinity Head.
Earrings : .random.Matter. - Taeyeon Earrings - Gold
Glasses : VCO . Zion glasses
Tattoo : *Bolson / Willem @ TMD
Lingerie : erratic / cecilia - lingerie / ivory 
Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system
Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One
Rings : Kibitz - Catherine Ring set 
Coat : ISON - gina jacket Collabor88
Shoes : Phedora ~ Claudia heels (Formerly @ Rewind)

Friday, 8 December 2017

A fate resigned.

Pose : FOXCITY. Milk Bath VOL2-6m
Location :  Consent (Adult)

Bodyfy opens today. For those who aren't aware of the event, it's a tattoo/body modification/scarification event, and it's been running for over a year now.
I'm always trying to find new ways to blog and photograph full tattoos. I feel like it's important to keep the creativity while showing as much of the body-art as possible. I'm not a fan of throwing my nips&bits out there willy nilly in photography, so hopefully what I've done here has managed to keep an element of class.
I'm really proud of my last few pictures. I'm not naturally talented, and often they take a lot of effort and a bit of wiggling. Today I added the ripples in the bathwater, and I got so ridiculously happy about it that I MAY have squee'd to myself!!
I hope you enjoy this little postie!

All of the things : 

 Body: -Belleza- Freya 
Skin : Lara Hurley- Beth
Head : CATWA Lona
Eyelids : Slink Mesh eyelids (No longer available in store, but if you ask really nicely in a note, you MIGHT get them from slink customer service like I did on an alt *coughs*)
Hairbase & Hair : *barberyumyum*P02(anime)
Freckles & Moles :  Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa]
Piercing :  -SU!-Medusa Piercing (I think this is a group gift?)
Tattoo : [ATI] Jayce...Bodyfy (open NOW!)

Thursday, 7 December 2017

Indigo nights.

Pose : .HG. Coy 2

Music, and the poetry of words hits you right in the feels.
The song I'm using today is "Satellite" by Gabbie Hanna. Apparently, she's a semi-well known youtube vlogger, but honestly, I'm not entirely aware of her presence there. 
Her song, however, hit me hard.
I've already described myself as slightly anxious, but I often have issues with social settings too. I'm convinced that as we start to rely more on the internet to socialize this is going to become a common problem. However, online I tend to be slightly more outgoing than that of the real me. Whether that's because i'm subconsciously masking the parts of me I don't like, or I have more confidence behind an avatar, I'm not entirely sure. What I do know, is that sometimes, I just CAN'T people.
I say the wrong things from the beginning. I forget new people don't know me, and don't understand my humor, so I backtrack and confuse myself and them.
Listen to the lyrics of this one, please. She might not be Beyonce, but give it a chance. Maybe you'll relate too.

All of the things : 

Body: -Belleza- Freya 
Skin : Lara Hurley- Beth
Head : CATWA Lona
Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 
Eye Applier : LOTUS. Lovely Eyes @ The Chapter Four
Frosty Face Appliers : Izzie's - Face Snow 
Hair & Hat : Action Inkubator HAIR Lulu
Tattoo : -Endless Pain Tattoos- Dawn Bodyfy (Opens 8th Dec)
Shirt : _CandyDoll_ Mala Bodysuit White (Gacha item)
Hands : Slink Hands - Dynamic
Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system
Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One
Rings : (Yummy) Serena Rings @ N21

Wednesday, 6 December 2017

This is the why.

Pose : FOXCITY Lounge-5 (Fatpack exclusive)
Props : ionic : Rooftop Chimneys & Antennas
{anc} mist cloud&nebra beads [sungold]

Sometimes when I put an outfit together I get an "Oh no bb, what is you doing?" moment. Not gonna lie, I sorta had that with this one, but incorporating a story behind the outfit really helps for me.
See, in this picture I've been out all night. I've half undressed in a semi-drunken stupor, pulling on a comfortable pair of shorts and fallen into bed, exhausted from a night of dancing and drinking.
At some point in the early morning, I've woken up with cotton-mouth, and reached over for a glass of water. After sating my thirst, I've decided to sneak out of the window and hop up to the roof for a cheeky smoke, adorning my feet with the shoes I wore the night before in order to watch the sun rise and the stars dissipate before my eyes.

All of the things : 

Body: -Belleza- Freya 
Skin : Lara Hurley- Beth
Head : CATWA Lona
Hair : Wasabi // Foxy Mesh Hair @ FaMESHed
Glasses : Peaches. - Koni Glasses
Choker : Eclat - Choker Heart
Tattoo : DAPPA - Amphora Tattoo. @ Winter Trend (Opens 8th Dec)
Shirt : EVANI - Annie Top
Hands : Slink Hands - Dynamic
Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system
Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The Bold One
Shorts : BUENO-Sweet Shorts 
Shoes : Phedora ~ Alicia heels ~ group gift